thusday (but really it's friday)

I'm so glad the long weekend is almost here!

Although I have to study for my French class (finals next week), I'll still enjoy it. I'll be so happy two weeks from now when this course is done! It really isn't as much fun as I thought it would be... I think next level I'll take at a community centre or a private school, not a college - it was too much info, too fast = no fun! Of course I also realized that I enjoy learning Italian much much more than French. But French is more usefull.... what to do, what to do...

I have a quiz tonight, and I'm procrastinating... I've lost all of my enthusiasm! I have so much that I have to learn for this quiz, so what do I do? nothing. *argh*

I just had my lunch, and I'm craving something sweet. I'm going to have to wait this one out... I did something terrible on Tuesday: we were having our dinner at the crappy cafeteria (with the vending machines around us), and before I realized it, I was munching on a "crunch" bar. WTF? I don't even remember when was the last time I bought a crappy chocolate bar... it might've actually been high school! I blame it on TOM, which was so weird in the first place - it was like 2 1/2 weeks late, with TOM symptoms the whole two weeks. whatever. It's done, and over, moving on.

my new motivation

I've been a bit of MIA lately... kind of busy at work, and kind of bummed about what the scale showed me last Friday - I was up 0.6. :(

I don't want to make excuses, but I suspect that I either gained some muscle during Feb., or my body is simply preparing for TOM (I had terrible cravings for sweets as a bonus!). I'm bummed because I'm still not really in a loosing mode, more like maintenance.

I know what I have to do - need to cut overall calories for the day, and add more cardio, dammit! Sounds simple enough, doesn't it? Well, cutting back on calories is hard, because I am working out pretty hard about five days out of seven, and when I work out, I want to it (and it's not like walking on a treadmill kind of workout - I'm talking lifting heavy weights with little breaks in between, and doing intervals while running).

But I do have a new motivation - I just booked our vacation to Nice, France! We leave 1st of May.

My goal will be to be down 5 pounds between now and May 1st. Let's say 2lbs by the end of March, and 3lbs in April.

How I will make it happen:

- continue weight-training on Mon. Wed. Fri.
- continue 40 min cardio on Tues. Fri.
- add a 20min run on treadmill after dinner on Mondays and Wednesdays
- go for a run on Sunday (1hr)

I don't want to promise that I will cut the food drastically, but I do want train myself to be mindful while I eat, and really enjoy the food (preferably in smaller quantities).

I just got this book - "French Women Don't Get Fat: The Secret of Eating For Pleasure". I've been wanting to read it for awhile now - and the timing couldn't be more perfect, huh?