Sometimes you just don't care...

Well, I didn't go to weigh in on Wednesday. What was my reasoning?

1. I knew I didn't loose the damn five pounds that will get me to my goal weight, and therefore I would've paid.
2. I think the $14.60 (or so) is better spent on a yoga class, rather than a guilt trip at WI. (I did go to hot yoga on Tuesday, and it was awsome! I decided to get a package).
3. I thought that maybe if I didn't weigh in, I would stop my emotional eating associated with it (I don't know why, but the night before WI I always stuff my face! aghhh.... so annoying).
4. I only really have to weigh in once a moth, so it's not like I'm quitting. (Right... That's the best excuse! Even though I promised myself that I would weigh in every week. Why do I always talk myself into this one?!!! I should know by now to what this leads to...).

So, there you go. The above has resulted in me not even going to the gym on Thursday (I did go for a 30min run on Wed. though!), and at night I ate: 2pc of toast with salmon cream cheese, one peach, then the dinner (3 drumsticks, 1/2 cup of pasta and spaghetti squash), which wouldn't have been all that bad, but then I decided to have some Amaretto (just 'cause I have it!) and, I think, three chocolates. What is wrong with me? Why do I always always have to eat?

I eat at work 'cause sometimes I'm nervous, sometimes bored, then I get home, and I eat because I'm trying to delay going to the gym (and I'm starving). After I eat dinner, I eat because I want a treat... (that's what I'm guessing, but I really don't know).

Food has to stop being the centre of my attention at all times! But I can't help it, especially when I'm on ww! That's all I do - I eat, and then I think of how I can work it off!

I have no self-control when it comes to food!

okay... breath... *****aghhhh****

I know, blaming myself won't help, that just leads to just letting everything go.

I still have half of today left to make wise choices, and the weekend to be really really good. That's four days and a half until Wed.. I have to focus on one day at a time.

Here's my new plan, that I'm going to try in order to curb my sugar cravings. No sugar until Wednesday! After the three day hump apperantely it will get easier. I obviously can't treat myself in moderation, so I'll try and 'clean' my body off of sugar.

Starting.... NOW!!!!