well, week two ended kind of bad. TOM starts tomorrow, and I've been feeling like crap (and really hungry, I can eat almost anything!).
Yesterday I wanted to get some chocolate, and went and got TWO cadbury thins, and ater them! WTF??!! I'm having cramps and I don't care. At least I went to the gym.
I'm going to Toronto again, next weekend. Really looking forward to meeting up with my friends (some gals that I used to work with). They are so great... I even had a dream about seeing them tonight!
I've come to accept that I'm not liking Ottawa all that much. There's just nothing to do, the food is rediculously expensive (downtown), and my family is not here. :(
makes me sad...
Thursday, October 26
Friday, October 20
Blah
That's how I feel today.
I didn't go to the gym in the morning (I chose to take the day off, instead of sunday), but looking at how the day is going, I might have to go to the gym at night...
It all started in the morning, when I decided to get a muffin with my coffee. Well, really, it started yesterday at lunch, when I went out with my co-workers for lunch and got a burger (which I NEVER eat). Then I got home, ate a bit of dinner, then decided to snack my heart out... Anyhow, so there was the muffin in the morning, and after lunch I got a choc. chip cookie (just one, mind you).
And it's raining, and it's dark. Yuck. That's all I have to say.
I didn't go to the gym in the morning (I chose to take the day off, instead of sunday), but looking at how the day is going, I might have to go to the gym at night...
It all started in the morning, when I decided to get a muffin with my coffee. Well, really, it started yesterday at lunch, when I went out with my co-workers for lunch and got a burger (which I NEVER eat). Then I got home, ate a bit of dinner, then decided to snack my heart out... Anyhow, so there was the muffin in the morning, and after lunch I got a choc. chip cookie (just one, mind you).
And it's raining, and it's dark. Yuck. That's all I have to say.
Wednesday, October 18
One down, how many to go?
Yesterday was officially the end of my week 1 (since my recommitment and being completely OP). I haven't been journaling since... oh I don't know - forever? And since I started working out with my trainer (I only have her for six sessions, so far), I've written down everything!
My goal is for the next twelve weeks (well, eleven now)
- to journal everything, every day,
- to exercise every day (following the program that I've set out- weights/3 times a week, cardio 4-5/week)
- eat healthy (less sugar)
I don't really want to focus on weight, since my trainer told me that I could look great at 135 - 140lb if I build muscle and loose fat. She actually told me that I don't really have that much to lose, based on my height/age. So my focus should really be muscle toning/building.
I think this is a better goal than weight. I get all obsessed about the numbers, and then go and subotage myself, when I get close to goal! It has happened more than once (I've been on WW for about five-six years, off and on).
And I can't think of it as a temorary workout thing. This should become a habit.
I found the time in the day that works for me (early morning), so I have no excuse to not exercise.
This past week had been great. I went to the gym every morning (I even went for a run when I was in Toronto!). I had time to cook dinner at night, and didn't have to stress about how I'm not going to the gym... And I feel great (a bit sore, but great). If I want to eat something extra, I can.
So, week two - here I come!
My goal is for the next twelve weeks (well, eleven now)
- to journal everything, every day,
- to exercise every day (following the program that I've set out- weights/3 times a week, cardio 4-5/week)
- eat healthy (less sugar)
I don't really want to focus on weight, since my trainer told me that I could look great at 135 - 140lb if I build muscle and loose fat. She actually told me that I don't really have that much to lose, based on my height/age. So my focus should really be muscle toning/building.
I think this is a better goal than weight. I get all obsessed about the numbers, and then go and subotage myself, when I get close to goal! It has happened more than once (I've been on WW for about five-six years, off and on).
And I can't think of it as a temorary workout thing. This should become a habit.
I found the time in the day that works for me (early morning), so I have no excuse to not exercise.
This past week had been great. I went to the gym every morning (I even went for a run when I was in Toronto!). I had time to cook dinner at night, and didn't have to stress about how I'm not going to the gym... And I feel great (a bit sore, but great). If I want to eat something extra, I can.
So, week two - here I come!
Thursday, October 12
Being really, really good
Yesterday I was good. And today, so far, also. I've been writing everything down (YAY!), it's been a long time since I've done that!
For lunch, I got Subway 'grilled chicken salad'. Holy expensive! It came to $7.17 with tax! That will teach me to make my own lunch (which I usually do). Tomorrow I have to buy lunch as well, but this time I think I'll go to the convenience "grocery" store, which, in my opinion, is a rip-off as well, but we are not buying groceries until Monday, since we are going to Toronto tomorrow.
I'm planning to work out on Saturday, but I'll see how it goes. Ideally, I would like to go to the gym downtown, but if the weather is nice I'll go for a short run at my parents' house.
I have to remember to stay focused, and stay on points!!!! (good luck to me!). :)
For lunch, I got Subway 'grilled chicken salad'. Holy expensive! It came to $7.17 with tax! That will teach me to make my own lunch (which I usually do). Tomorrow I have to buy lunch as well, but this time I think I'll go to the convenience "grocery" store, which, in my opinion, is a rip-off as well, but we are not buying groceries until Monday, since we are going to Toronto tomorrow.
I'm planning to work out on Saturday, but I'll see how it goes. Ideally, I would like to go to the gym downtown, but if the weather is nice I'll go for a short run at my parents' house.
I have to remember to stay focused, and stay on points!!!! (good luck to me!). :)
Wednesday, October 11
Lies, sweet little lies
I had my first meeting with the personal trainer. We weren't working out, and not even doing the measurements or weighing in - she just asked me questions about my motivation for working out, what I want to get out of it, and what I eat.
Well, the first part was easy. I want to loose at least ten pounds. That's my main goal. She asked me how much I work out - and I said four to five times in the gym, plus running on Sat. or Sun. Which is true, for the past couple of weeks, anyhow. But, of course, if I worked out that much always... well, I wouldn't be asking for her help. In truth, after our wedding in May, it all went downhill: I had the move to deal with, a new job, a new city, grandma's and my doggie's death. All in the span of three months. Needless to say, working out wasn't my priority.
Then there is the food part. When I told her was my "usual" day looks like, well, it looks perfect! I eat my veggies, get three servings of dairy, have my protein, and drink my water (oh, and an occasional sweet under 100 cal.). So, what is my problem? Well, the quantity. I don't smoke, I don't eat junk/fast food and I rarely drink pop. I only have one coffee a day. But I DO have many snacks during the day, and especially at night. And it all adds up in the end. So, she asked my to keep a food diary (*hmmmm* that sounds familiar...).
In the end, I think this will be a positive experience (having a trainer, I mean). It will give me the motivation, and the focus that I lack. I'm so close to my goal, I just have to be consistant, and do all the right things, that I know I should be doing.
Friday we are doing the weigh-in and body measurements (*iick!*), as well as body fat percentage. This one I'm really curious about. We'll see how it goes. I think this will be a good motivation for me not to pig out when we go to visit the parents and parents-in-law this weekend!
Well, the first part was easy. I want to loose at least ten pounds. That's my main goal. She asked me how much I work out - and I said four to five times in the gym, plus running on Sat. or Sun. Which is true, for the past couple of weeks, anyhow. But, of course, if I worked out that much always... well, I wouldn't be asking for her help. In truth, after our wedding in May, it all went downhill: I had the move to deal with, a new job, a new city, grandma's and my doggie's death. All in the span of three months. Needless to say, working out wasn't my priority.
Then there is the food part. When I told her was my "usual" day looks like, well, it looks perfect! I eat my veggies, get three servings of dairy, have my protein, and drink my water (oh, and an occasional sweet under 100 cal.). So, what is my problem? Well, the quantity. I don't smoke, I don't eat junk/fast food and I rarely drink pop. I only have one coffee a day. But I DO have many snacks during the day, and especially at night. And it all adds up in the end. So, she asked my to keep a food diary (*hmmmm* that sounds familiar...).
In the end, I think this will be a positive experience (having a trainer, I mean). It will give me the motivation, and the focus that I lack. I'm so close to my goal, I just have to be consistant, and do all the right things, that I know I should be doing.
Friday we are doing the weigh-in and body measurements (*iick!*), as well as body fat percentage. This one I'm really curious about. We'll see how it goes. I think this will be a good motivation for me not to pig out when we go to visit the parents and parents-in-law this weekend!
Friday, October 6
No money
I got to work today all excited to go and get my usual morning coffee from Second Cup... I reach into my bag, and realize that I forgot it at home! This never happens to me! I feel so lost! :)
Maybe I should do that more often! (that would solve my snacking/treating problem). I actually seriously considered asking my boss for $2! (and he would've probably given it to me too...). LOL
Yesterday night went okay, I guess... I did run for 40min on the treadmill, and I made chilli. I probably went over the points, but didn't care all that much, since I at least exercised. I peaked at the scale this morining. No movement - 145. But this could be water retention and TOM, since I feel my pants a bit looser.
I didn't go to the gym this morning. Bad, bad me. I woke up, and then I don't know what happened... I just closed my eyes, and then it was twenty minutes later! Oh well, I might go to the 'gym room' once I get home. And really, I have exercised every day since Sunday (and twice on Tuesday). I know, it's just an excuse... My goal is to do some sort of activity every day, and (now) try to have less snacks.
I have my assesement with a personal trainer on Wednesday, so I want to see a numer less than 145! Plus, I did want to go to WI too...
So, today is Friday, which means that the long weekend is almost here! Yay! Three days of freedom. And next weekend we are off to Toronto.
Oh, and here's my food intake for today, (and I know there won't be any extra treats, for sure!):
egg (boiled) and bread - 5pt
all-bran bar - 2pt
apple - 1pt
chilli (I'm guessing this one) - 4pt
yogourt - 2pt
________________________ 14pt
(oh man, am I going to be hungry when I get home!)
Maybe I should do that more often! (that would solve my snacking/treating problem). I actually seriously considered asking my boss for $2! (and he would've probably given it to me too...). LOL
Yesterday night went okay, I guess... I did run for 40min on the treadmill, and I made chilli. I probably went over the points, but didn't care all that much, since I at least exercised. I peaked at the scale this morining. No movement - 145. But this could be water retention and TOM, since I feel my pants a bit looser.
I didn't go to the gym this morning. Bad, bad me. I woke up, and then I don't know what happened... I just closed my eyes, and then it was twenty minutes later! Oh well, I might go to the 'gym room' once I get home. And really, I have exercised every day since Sunday (and twice on Tuesday). I know, it's just an excuse... My goal is to do some sort of activity every day, and (now) try to have less snacks.
I have my assesement with a personal trainer on Wednesday, so I want to see a numer less than 145! Plus, I did want to go to WI too...
So, today is Friday, which means that the long weekend is almost here! Yay! Three days of freedom. And next weekend we are off to Toronto.
Oh, and here's my food intake for today, (and I know there won't be any extra treats, for sure!):
egg (boiled) and bread - 5pt
all-bran bar - 2pt
apple - 1pt
chilli (I'm guessing this one) - 4pt
yogourt - 2pt
________________________ 14pt
(oh man, am I going to be hungry when I get home!)
Thursday, October 5
Hungry
So, I know that I need to eat less. I eat pretty healthy, but the quantity is an issue for sure. Too much of a good thing, is still too much, I guess. But it's so hard! When I make the decision to eat less, that's all I think about. And I think I am truly hungry.
Here's what I ate today so far, and right now it's almost three o'clock, and I'm almost starving!
Egg (boiled) and bread - 3pt
Apple - 1pt
Yogourt - 2pt
All-bran bar - 2pt
Bread & tuna salad - 4pt
Yogourt - 1pt
Cookie - 3pt
----------------------> 16pt
and I still have to eat dinner!
I am planning to go and run on a treadmill as soon as I get home (about 30min - maybe 2-3 pts?).
And I know that it's being at work that kills me - whenever I'm bored or nervous I really want to snack. But when I get home, and eat dinner, I want a treat as well! Good thing is that we don't buy much, it terms of tempting treats, like choc. chip cookies and such. Like yesterday - I was roaming through the kitchen in search of something sweet, and I ended up eating half a nectarine, choc. pudding and some walnuts. So - not so terrible for a binge, really.
I went to the doctor today, to do some tests. The appointement ended up being late half an hour late! And then, when they finally put me in the room, nobody asked me why I was there (which is strange, because they always do, whenever you don't really feel like disclosing your real reason). Anyhow, the doctor came in, and I wasn't even undressed. So then she told me to undress, and she took another patient! So, I ended up being half an hour late for work.... Oh well, no one said anything.
Too bad I don't have anything yummy to eat tonight. Yesterday I went to the store to get some veggies, and ended up buying portabello mushrooms and asparagus. So I did a stir-fry with that, and some chicken breasts, and some ready-made fries, the healthy kind (mostly for DH, but I admit, I had a few too).
Lately, we've been buying a 'treat' dinner (if we don't go out for one, on the weekend). And, I really think, it ends up being even better than going to a restaurant - last week we had crab legs, some grilled (fresh) trout with portabella mushroom stir-fry and rice. It was sooooo yummy! And pretty good for you too.
I'm very lucky that my DH is totally into healthy eating as well. Not like a low-fat, diet kind of eating, but eating foods that are good for you, and avoiding trans-fats. And he never buyes any tempting foods (like cookies or chips). I don't think I could've handled that very well.
So, really I have no excuse to not loose the damn weight. I can excercise every day, and eat healthy. What more can I ask for?
Here's what I ate today so far, and right now it's almost three o'clock, and I'm almost starving!
Egg (boiled) and bread - 3pt
Apple - 1pt
Yogourt - 2pt
All-bran bar - 2pt
Bread & tuna salad - 4pt
Yogourt - 1pt
Cookie - 3pt
----------------------> 16pt
and I still have to eat dinner!
I am planning to go and run on a treadmill as soon as I get home (about 30min - maybe 2-3 pts?).
And I know that it's being at work that kills me - whenever I'm bored or nervous I really want to snack. But when I get home, and eat dinner, I want a treat as well! Good thing is that we don't buy much, it terms of tempting treats, like choc. chip cookies and such. Like yesterday - I was roaming through the kitchen in search of something sweet, and I ended up eating half a nectarine, choc. pudding and some walnuts. So - not so terrible for a binge, really.
I went to the doctor today, to do some tests. The appointement ended up being late half an hour late! And then, when they finally put me in the room, nobody asked me why I was there (which is strange, because they always do, whenever you don't really feel like disclosing your real reason). Anyhow, the doctor came in, and I wasn't even undressed. So then she told me to undress, and she took another patient! So, I ended up being half an hour late for work.... Oh well, no one said anything.
Too bad I don't have anything yummy to eat tonight. Yesterday I went to the store to get some veggies, and ended up buying portabello mushrooms and asparagus. So I did a stir-fry with that, and some chicken breasts, and some ready-made fries, the healthy kind (mostly for DH, but I admit, I had a few too).
Lately, we've been buying a 'treat' dinner (if we don't go out for one, on the weekend). And, I really think, it ends up being even better than going to a restaurant - last week we had crab legs, some grilled (fresh) trout with portabella mushroom stir-fry and rice. It was sooooo yummy! And pretty good for you too.
I'm very lucky that my DH is totally into healthy eating as well. Not like a low-fat, diet kind of eating, but eating foods that are good for you, and avoiding trans-fats. And he never buyes any tempting foods (like cookies or chips). I don't think I could've handled that very well.
So, really I have no excuse to not loose the damn weight. I can excercise every day, and eat healthy. What more can I ask for?
Wednesday, October 4
Some thoughts on life...
What do you need to be happy?
Money? Love? Children? I don't know. I think it varies day by day. Sometimes, I think, you don't realize that you are happy, but you are.
I think I should learn to be content with what I have. Sometimes I think life couldn't get any better, and I'm afraid that something is going to happen, and upsets this balance. On other days I think I need so much more - more money, more time, kids.
I think that I should finally print out my wedding pictures, and make that scrapbook that I wanted. Problem is - I'm such a perfectionist (in some things). And the job is so overwelmingly big, I don't know where to start... so I don't. I should go home today, and pick up that CD, and make a goal of editing 20 pictures, printing them out, and start the scrapbook this weekend!
Monday, October 2
And so I begin
I've made some postive steps towards my weight-loss goal. I've joined a gym!!!!
It was a tough decision, since it's a considerable amount of money, plus, we have an 'exercise room' in our building (which I will use as a supplement). But, since I joined (wednesday), I felt really good. I went every weekday morning so far, and on the weekend I did the 5k 'run for the cure'. I feel in control now, more confident. As long as I have an establised routine, I can stay focused.
I haven't steped on the scale yet. I don't want to get discouraged. And I've decided that I will go to WI this Wednesday, no matter what. If I'm over my goal, I will pay, and will weigh-in next month. This way I'm still accountable, and it's not costing me a ton of money.
Ooh, oooh, and I bought six sessions with a personal trainer! Hopefully I'll get someone good, that can motivate me, and show me what to do. And I kind of look forward to the 'orientation', where they'll measure and weigh... but then, when I reach my goal, it'll be satisfying to look back...
Other than that, I'm kind of looking forward to going to Toronto next week. It will be nice to visit my family and my parents-in-law. It will be a challenge to control my food intake, for sure. I guess I have to start saying 'no' to my Dad, who loves to cook, and treat me and my mom and my sister. And I have to say 'no' to my MIL, who loves to treat me and my DH as well (with food, of course).
All in all, so far so good!
It was a tough decision, since it's a considerable amount of money, plus, we have an 'exercise room' in our building (which I will use as a supplement). But, since I joined (wednesday), I felt really good. I went every weekday morning so far, and on the weekend I did the 5k 'run for the cure'. I feel in control now, more confident. As long as I have an establised routine, I can stay focused.
I haven't steped on the scale yet. I don't want to get discouraged. And I've decided that I will go to WI this Wednesday, no matter what. If I'm over my goal, I will pay, and will weigh-in next month. This way I'm still accountable, and it's not costing me a ton of money.
Ooh, oooh, and I bought six sessions with a personal trainer! Hopefully I'll get someone good, that can motivate me, and show me what to do. And I kind of look forward to the 'orientation', where they'll measure and weigh... but then, when I reach my goal, it'll be satisfying to look back...
Other than that, I'm kind of looking forward to going to Toronto next week. It will be nice to visit my family and my parents-in-law. It will be a challenge to control my food intake, for sure. I guess I have to start saying 'no' to my Dad, who loves to cook, and treat me and my mom and my sister. And I have to say 'no' to my MIL, who loves to treat me and my DH as well (with food, of course).
All in all, so far so good!
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